self-talk @efanny's

e entry dat finally got posted.

EXAMS R OVER!!!! yeah!!!

but honestly, im not dat exhilarated, exuberant, enthused, excited, etc etc as i tot i would be. guess my anticipation of personal emotions failed me again...

anagnorisis: im a veri fickle person in many aspects, yet paradoxically steadfast in other aspects.

nevertheless, im glad exams r over, though i do feel a sudden void in my life...

frens, come fill this void quick!!!with movies, ktv, clubbing, shopping, bbqs, badminton! haha!

btw ple, i did blog, jus dat i din post some of my previous entries up...haha...i decided against it. if i have any issue with a fren, i should talk it out face to face, n stand up for wat i believe n love, rather than using blogging as a medium. it will only seem like im trying to diss e person.

i thank GOD i din lash at ple ( u know u have e tendency to do dat, during exams? its like ur nerves r on e edge,onli a matter of whether u r aware of it or not), neither did i whimper like some wounded animal during exam period. now just hoping for e best.:)

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it was penny's wedding last wed.

cant believe she's reali married. can't believe im growing up, or rather, have grown up.

almost e whole poly group of frens attended. as we sat at e round table, n i looked at all my frens n kakis, i felt so contented........n TOUCHED. i almost cried, so did xuelin when i said," just like back at North Canteen hor?"

it was reminiscent of good ol' times, when we all sat in e North Canteen during breaks. idle chatting, good humor banter, n suaning. although we r now all dressed veri differently from our tshirt n jeans act then.

i reali believe we must cherish every moment dat we have. cos, some things just wont come back again.

speaking of my fickle-mindedness. i used to reali like this guy from poly, who looked exactly like alvin leong, just in younger,trendier dressing.

for poly kakis n frens who dunno, alvin leong is my eng lecturer who disguises himself successfully as a lab technician in his 'always navy blue' dressing.

but seeing him(e poly guy) a couple of times recently, i realised i finally stopped liking him. i was so glad, cos ive liked him for so long back then, i was so afraid i'll never stop liking him.

BUT, dat nite during penny's wedding, when i saw him n talked to him, some long forgotten feelings came back??

???

it'll pass, i think....cos im real fickle.

posted by efanny @ 10:22 AM