bitten by e bug...again
yeah, which bug? the temperamental bug.
again. when is this going to end? someone pass me the insecticide, please...
meanwhile, e people-pleaser bee has stung me yet again...im now dripping with honey... but please be careful, dun take too much of it; its all artificial flavouring...
frens, do u miss me? thanks, dats great. cos im starting to miss myself too.
where is the love...? e black eyed peas crooned....if it doesn't cost much, please add in, my genuinity as well...
really. im myself. n i should reali just be myself. nowadays, im just mostly myself, n some parts not myself.
just trying to see if classical conditioning reali...works.
seems to work fine. maybe i should make a cassette playing just dat self-centred, egocentric word:myself...
n my affable, genuine self may resurface...n kick this current imposter-of-a-me into kallang river...
where is dat ah siao who reali loves ple, n shows it? nowadays, i feel im trying too hard to be myself, till im not myself.sorry to repeat this word "myself" so many times.but im just trying to recall ah siao back...im in such a stupid mood nowadays...gals, i think its cos its e inevitable time of e month? u all bore with me for 3 yrs, now i have to suffer e full brunt of this monthly torturing alone. no minghui or sijie to sayang me, n to sae: it will pass dun worry, we understand...
n even no ah da to give me dat dirty look of "dun use this as an excuse for bad behaviour", presenting me a great opportunity to give her one of my dirty looks as well, for total release. Best part? i know she still loves me, n knows me, n vice-versa... despite e 'dirty n dirtier looks' exchange...
n gals, china black is back in my life again...in n out as he pleases. im stuck.
lin, u rem ur msg: can't u just put aside e whole religion thingy?
but I cant, n i wont. cos GOD is my everything. n i cant n i wont give up everything for him.
sigh. feelings come n go. im counting on dat.
Sad thing..but e good thing is? at least i know i wont be temperamental like dis forever, dat is, till e next nasty monthly cycle comes...maybe i should consider taking primrose oil...does dat help for mood swings?
if there is any guy who reads this, im sorry. ive tried to be subtle.
btw, gals...take good care...n im still ah siao to u all...:)
3 Comments:
haiyoh.. relac ah ling.. hahas.. i thought your one week up le.. still not yet ah.. take care kk.. cherish this week.. tracia will be gone sooN..
sorry, i am a kaypoh who bum into here thru elainze's link, pai sei pai sei.Hope u dun mind. find tis post interesting.
identity crisis, u re not alone, i've trying to be myself back in nass time too. hard. if u succeed, do give a pointer or two!
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Is primrose oil really that good? I think I want to try liao. U are right in what u sd in my blog. I am having this PMS going on and that explain why I am feeling crappy and angry with things and people.
I heard about China Black from Lin. Aiyoh, I thought he just erm, *cough* died in Tekong and R.I.P when he play that disappearing act? No need to gv up GOD for him for he is not worth it.
Finally, I sayang u lah. Your time of the mth shld be over liao by the time I type this comment. Take care.
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