I am not an Ah Lian!
Got it? so *diaoz*. Im jus a strez out being who reali wants to follow GOD. However, all of a sudden, Im thrown in a disarray...
I was never really bothered by the fact that I look very much like e epitome of e garish clothes dorned, badly dyed-haired Singaporean female counterpart; loosely translated: Ah Beng's galfren-AH LIAN. My unfortunate resemblance stops at the physical appearance FULL STOP. However, I realised recently that there have been ple who took my well put-up front to disguise my noble calibre (ok, dun puke or get too indignant) too seriously. They have judged me by appearance,literally n showed it, when interacting socially with me, or in a circle of frens.
Im appalled, n well my turn to be indignant. N for the first time, Im seriously affected by this lack of insight. How assumptive can ple be! I was so disturbed I actually considered changing my "image" to prevent any further misunderstanding. However, an inner voice kept telling me: Do u realli care for these ple who are that shallow n cant be bothered to look past ur physical appearance to see for themselves who u truly are?
Presto, case closed. Im not going to crack my head or break my heart or burn a hole in pocket-for-makeover for ple who cant recognise gold when they see it. Ple can dig for gold in their noses but cant be bothered to dig for gold in an ah-lian lookalike, duh.(ok i noe this sounds crude, but im agitated now,remember?)
Im constantly in a battle or a rut to NOT be a people-pleaser always. Im going to win the devil this round, frens pray for me. Im not going to dye my hair black to please some shallow goondus!
Stressed. One word to describe my plight in studies, walk with GOD n emotional state nowadays. However, I have powerful backings. GOD, and dessert!:)
*I pray GOD will show me distinctly where HE wants me to serve, fellowship and make a home of. meaning : Which Church? I really badly want to settle down... *
3 Comments:
Ger, the 1st impression I have of you 3 yrs back is definately NOT an ah lian. Though your appearance sometimes mislead people into assuming you are an ah lian, their opinions will change once they know you well. Remember people always judge by 1st impression but once they get to know you well, their assumptions of you will change. Please don't dye your hair black because we as your friends (you know who are the "we" I am referring to) like you as what you are now. And trust me when I say these because we know you for more than 3 yrs alrd. I believe those friends who know you longer than we will agree with us.
Don't be too stressed up @ studies k? You are an intelligent person. Perhaps sometimes studies will overwhelm you but that is because you are just new with all these work. Things will be well once you get the gist of everything. Take Care.
ah siao, pink lover ---> xuelin here...same as minghui, dun dye ur hair black...since ppl r like this, jus let them be...i also same as u wat..last time a lot of ppl say i am ah lian..im quite pissed abt it cos i am also not a ah lian! i only look extremely FIERCE and DAO when i nv smile..is it wrong?throughout this 3 yrs i also nv think u r an ah lian loh...to compare u and me, i think im more LIAN than u?lol...dun bother to change urself for the seek of others..i noe its very annoying when ppl kept saying u like this...if they say u again, ask them to list out 10 reasons y they think u r a ah lian..confirm plus chop, they can't even list at least 2 reasons haha
just trust and rest completely in the promise that He never will leave you or forsake you. =]
really no use focusing on ur problem cos it'll only magnify the problem but see your God who is BIGGER than your circumstances.
Truth never changes, circumstances do. Your circumstances have to come in line with His truth. Surely all that you set your hands and your heart on, it shall prosper! Shalom babe!
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