Wednesday, October 06, 2004

poison apple juice,anyone?

Im getting real fed up these days. reali.

it is rather uncharacteristic of me to say that, or rather to make such a public statement about it. but some ple r truly harping on my nerves. my inner heart is so ungracious these days, i feel ashamed.

i need to rail n rant. and it boils down to this 'blog or no blog' debate again. i feel that a blog has provided me an outlet to express myself to ...friends. n im real thankful that thru blogging, it has helped me keep in touch with my friends' lives n emotions. that i feel their comforting presence is just nearby...that we r still sharing one another's lives.

however, a blog is...public. there r some stuff that u may wan to share with all, n some that u wan to share only, with a selective group of frens. but that's not possible on blogspot. maybe that indicates i should switch to LJ or just create another blog altogether?

my moods swing high n low unpredictably nowadays, n i hate it. n i hate myself for that too. i reali should have a good, long look at my heart n see what's ailing me. n confess to GOD abt it, and REPENT.

while im blogging, e want to scream at those ple who's torturing me is in full strength; im bursting to let it out...e fav literature words of my ELL classmate rang in my ears: DISGUST. SUFFERING.

great, just e most apt depiction of my irritation now.

GOD, pls forgive me...n please give me back my peace...

2 Comments:

At October 8, 2004 at 2:25 AM, Blogger Si Ni as known as baby08 said...

pa pa xiong, wat happen to u? who bully u? i go n scold him or her!!!!

 
At October 8, 2004 at 7:08 AM, Blogger winter de escapist said...

What happen? I want to call and ask you but afraid you are busy. Don't hesitate to call me.

 

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