self-talk @efanny's

Goodbye, till i see u when im in fairer state...

what an irony. Im UTTERLY depressed over the whole blogging business. but im BLOGGING this veri moment...

tell me, am i the only one who gets so affected about blogging? people always get me wrong. ya, more than one, and more than once.

n btw, this entry is not talking bt ANYONE in particular. Im just veri, veri sunken in spirits now over any previous misunderstandings.

Even though they had been cleared up, i remain apprehensive: will i just be misunderstood by people reading my blog entries now n forever?


A blog has an audience. n im someone who likes to please the audience. if i just want to pen down whatever im feeling in my heart, i can just write in a private JOURNAL, and not post in up on the World Wide Web.

even though the blog bears your name, n u control the 'pen', no, its not all about oneself. cos as said, a blog has an audience.

some people seek to be understood through bloggin. obviously, its the other way round for me. shouldn't that be a strong enough reason for me to call it quits?

since im not pleasing the audience. since i am misunderstood, rather than better understood.

so frens, im stopping now. at least, for quite a while...

n in case there's any fren out there who thinks im talking about u in this entry, i am HONESTLY, not.

if this entry sounds veri dismal, yes, that's how im feeling now. i hate PMS.


a line from MARS, a show starring ZaiZai n Barbie Hsu, "everyone is alone in this world."

u know wat, when u r feeling like how i feel now, this line feels kinda of true.

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just finished talking to a fren. felt much better. so i guess e above line doesn't feel that true now...

she mentioned something of this sort," why do we have to be nice, n take into consideration people's feelings when they don't? there are so mani selfish people in this world who only care for themselves n their feelings. so y should we care for theirs?"

i guess, being 'nice' is a choice. we all r bad at heart. its a difficult choice though.

but, we have to try our best, don't we?

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one last thing before i go,"frens, will u show mercy and/or grace in ur blogs? i know its ur blog, as many will like to put it. but your frens are...YOUR FRENS. dun hurt them. "

n frens, i love u all. if u all have ever experienced my love n friendship, will u all try not to hurt me too?

posted by efanny @ 11:08 PM