Its all over and over the board. What a drama.
Its strange how I get over it so much faster...
Im still trying to figure out why...
But God, I thank you, cos You're really the peace that guards my heart, my help in times of need.
Anyway, unto another topic. I had a quarrel with my sis today. For the rest of today, I tried to figure out what communication is all about. It seems like sometimes its really not about how hard you try, to a certain extent how the person wants to percieve your intentions are already set in his/her mind. You may be smiling and the person may think you're gloating; you may be trying to keep your voice even but the person may think that you're trying to work up a silent temper.
So in this case, I thought I was calm and just trying to figure out what resulted in the clash of timing. But my sis percieved it as that Im accusing her. And well, there you go.
Anyway, I flared up and yelled back. shucks and sianz. Later, I chose to ignore all her smses, which I know would most probably contain just a tirade of verbal abuse that I don't see the need to subject myself to, and compete who can be more hurtful. The delete button was handy.
Im still struggling. I don't feel like saying sorry at all. I still don't think its my fault. Im holding on to my right selfishly, yes.
Still waiting to be convicted by God to humble myself and reconcile. But God, honestly, its hard.:(
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