self-talk @efanny's

mind and fingers apart

I haven't blogged for a long time, can't find the heart and time to. I guess there's always a momentum to doing things. Once u slow down or stop, u just find it too difficult to kick in gear again. it makes me question any enthusium i have for anything in the 1st place: was it just out of boredom or was it really passion?

I guess time tells it all... if u want to know whether watever spark ignited in u for doing certain stuff will snuff out eventually, e best thing to do is to test it with the passing of time. If u can't afford the time, maybe some hypoethical thinking that involves u thinking abt how u'll feel about something 20 years down the road will do.

If u can't be bothered with either hypoethical thinking or time test, maybe u should just drop the whole silly idea altogether. and stop wasting people's time by sharing it too often. and dun forget, u're taking in unnecessary breathing air that ought to be saved for deserving folks who work hard at stuff for sustained periods of time.

such a sharp tongue. and i'm being sarcarstic to myself. boo.

One day, I'll look back at the stuff i've written here and feel like wringing my own neck.

But dun worry too much for me, cos I still survive with no permanent injuries to my neck after so many dairies (containing mainly mushy, crappy, childish angst) since my adolescent years. I do neck wringing often u see...everytime I came across an old diary and am stupid/bored/forgetful enough to read it, and writh with embarrassment at myself.

and u noe wat? i've typed this whole lot of stuff w/o using my brain. my brain was actually clogged with other stuff and I've had actually wanted to come here to declog...but my fingers flew over the keyboard and i ended up with an entry that speaks absolutely nothing of what I'm thinking.

amazing...hahaha....blah.

posted by efanny @ 11:33 AM