self-talk @efanny's

letting go and giving up

I've realised that to move on in life, I need to learn to let go.

I've also realised that to grow to be who HE wants me to be, I need to learn to give up.

n i really mean realised. I know both supposedly simple truths all along, but i did not, or dare not fully internalise them.

Truths that are easy to understand, yet so difficult to administer always.

To move on in life, I need to learn to let go.

To let go of past hurts, failures, guilt, shame and disappointments.

To let go of insecurity, fears and cynicism.

To let go of worldly hankering and selfish ambition.

To let go of any outward appearances I put on to protect or disguise my true self.

For, if I don't learn to let go of these things that are holding me back, I am like a kite tied to a tree. or like a yacht roped to the harbor.

How can I soar as high as HE will take me? Im tied, I can't fly to the high blue skies.

How can I sail as far as HE will guide me? Im roped, I can't venture into the limitless, sparkling waters.

To move on in life, I need to let go. and let GOD.

n HE will be the wind who'll gently lift me up into the blue skies. or the wind who'll ruffle my sails and blow me with care into the correct direction.

To grow to be who HE wants me to be, I need to learn to give up.

To give up my rights that mostly just scream, "Me 1st!"

To give up my burdens and excess emotional baggage.

To give up self-dependence and stubborn pride.

For, if I don't learn to give up these things to HIM, I am like a stubborn little child who refuses to let her father carry her baggage that is too heavy for her. or like a shapeless lump of clay that doesn't want to give up its present state and let the potter do his work.

How can I travel light when I insist on carrying my own baggage that's too heavy for me? I can't travel far without falling and crying.

How can I become the beautiful piece of pottery that HE wants to mold me into? I pridefully refuse to give myself up to be shaped; I will remain a useless lump of clay.

To grow to be who HE wants me to be, I need to give up. and give to GOD.

and trust that HE loves me, and has plans to prosper me, and not to harm me. plans to give me hope and a future.

That when HE reigns in my life, I can develop myself to the fullest, and live according to HIS will.

Thank you, Father. for speaking into my life and reminding me of these at this timely period. I was tired at heart but YOU renewed me. Now, I feel I can continue to run the race...

posted by efanny @ 10:34 AM