love is but passing smoke?
its quite late now...im enjoying this temporary illusion of "ive nothing to do"...
ive just come back from a veri happy n fun session of fencing, had some enjoyable rottalk with my fren on mahjong, n did a test on how to differentiate genuine n fake smiles: 16/20. hmm, i guess dat makes me an expert in discerning sincerity? haha...
i was happy, but now im sorta feeling sad?
i was reading my fren's blog n i saw she's actuali quite sad...it isnt easy, isnt it? to want to forget a person, n throw a large chunk of memories away...it just cant be said n done...its a long process of fading e person n memories out...n my heart went out to her...actuali quite xin tong to see her still upset after so long...i wish e guy will make her happy either by giving her a future or just leaving her alone...haiz...but humans r not always reliable, aren't they?
was readin another guy's blog...seems like the gal chose someone else over him in the end...n to be reali irritating, i must say: i see it coming, 100%. n i decided to stop reading his blog. cos i find myself getting increasingly...to be veri honest, disgusted with him. from annoyance to disgust. just from blog entries. if its someone else, i'll express sympathy. but i think he seriously needs help...2 learn to grow up to be a man of his age...n not just trying to be a egocentric someone with his whimsical ideals...n yet thinking "its e world who dun understand him."
human love. im getting to a point in my life, where more strongly than ever, im thoroughly convicted i will never get involved with a non believer or a shaky christian. its just not worth e trouble n pain. it saddens me to see the love stories around me...with unhappy endings. i think if a person tries to look for love in another human, he/she will never recieve perfect love. how transitional n undependable human love can be...
i rather be firmly grounded in GOD' s love. i guess relationships r reali not on my list now. i'll grow in HIM now...giving HIM my best, i hope. there r temptations ard...but i must focus on HIM...:) if i ever get into a relationship, it must be someone who loves GOD...only then will he try his best to love, i think...
how mani times in e past ive been tempted by butterflies, oni to realise sadly, they do nothing but flutter aimlessly? ive even considered a guy,thinking that it seems he reali likes me, n i sorta wavered n think maybe i should give him a chance since he's real nice even though he's a non believer n i dun like him in dat way. however, it turns out his 'love' is apparently quite transferable. hmm...i still treat him as a good fren n think of him as a good guy, but i guess i will never think of him in e same way again...
i thank GOD for always showing e way...
blog lag
haiz...ive wanted to update realli...trust me...
ive wanted to write about my jeff chang concert experience, his great songs, some thoughts about some whatnots, study stress, my dancing...
hmmm...well time flies...now its...abit too late to relate ...erhmm..a tad too dated events...
now i dun even know what to type...hmmm...
im lost for words....map pls...
i'll write more...but i dun think i can do so coherently now...cos tired la...hee
cya...mooncakes sweeties...
Thanksgiving
hee, as the title goes.. i will write this in a slightly more structured style, machiam report..:)
sadly, everyone, im officially 21. n yes, ah lin, i will stop trying to pass off with self-proclaimations of 18. *pout*...but mani thanks to frens who have made my bdae a special one even though i was veri caught up with assignment deadlines n din plan anything for my bdae.
1stly, Thanks to my family: my mum for her lovely bracelet, my dad for paying for a lovely dinner, n my dear sis for e quaint watch n gorgeous strawberry(i love strawberries!) bdae cake:)
2ndly,Thanks to my clique, shan, shirley, qi n xiao chong 4 e watch as well...hee..i wanted a watch, but now I have two. aren't I blessed? hee... n many thanks to shirley n shan for their valiant efforts to drive me back to hostel. it was shirley's first time driving for a long journey. although in e end, we were lost at KJE for two hours jus for wanting to drive from my hostel to e kopitiam near CHChurch for coffee, incredulous? haha, never underestimate 3 gals abilties, with shirley trying to drive straight n un-panicky, shan breaking abt all e traffic rules we could dat dae so that we could get out of our plight, n me trying to read an expired map...hahaha...lol.. in e end we still need shirley's knight in shining armor aka boyfren to guide us out over e phone ...thanks gals, it was a reali memorable way to mark my bdae,no sacarsm implied...:)
3rdly,Thanks to carolyn, more affectionately wanhui, for e smashing car plate lookalike name plate, ive pasted it on my hostel study table...reali love it, can always count on u for a creative present...n thanks for e bdae hug:)
4thly,Thanks to my poly kakis for e melting bouquet of pink tulips, n pink perfume, n pink cake. yes, they know me well hahaha..veri touched to know from moshimaro's blog dat u all wanted to buy something "nice n meaningful" for me n nearly burst ur heads...although i mus admit: e perfume smelt like..potpourri..but i reali appreciate e efforts in shopping for my present..n i enjoyed e dinner(at phins) n ktv with ya all...:)
5thly,Thanks to ah da, for blessing me with e NIV bible...haha, i think e fontsize is perfect, even though u think its too small...:)
6thly,Thanks to my roommate, Tracia and frens Elaine n Su Huey for e key pendant...I will wear dat 4 a yr, n yes, elaine i will stay "pinkish", irritating, naggy, and "dorlingish" always...*double pout* haha..:)
7thly,Thanks to Chai Lee for e handstitched piglet pouch...Im veri surprised n touched...Im butterfingers at sewing..:)
8thly,Thanks to John, for e bright n sparkling angel ornament...its on my hostel study desk. just to let ya know, ur frenship is treasured too..:)
9thly,Thanks to my senior, Mark for e precious moments pink pouch n cushion...
10thly,Thanks to my church frens for celebrating my bdae in an most endearing way. Thanks 4 e game, e tulips,e box of strawberries acting as a bdae cake, e piggy bolster, n e BIG card...:) was veri touched too...I appreciate e efforts ya all made...:) n thanks to joel for e bible study guide...a veri useful gift...:) Thanks to jincheng n huanjie for e bdae card..Thanks to xiaotzu for his bdae song+guitar playing over e phone (was a pleasnat surprise!), n sarah's singing over e phone as well too haha... n also e sharing about me ..thanks for making me feel loved...:) n thanks to dear Tracia again, i know she was e one who provided info to church frens abt e tulips n strawberries...:)
Lastly, thanks for all e sweet bdae msgs Ive recieved...above thanks giving was given in order according to e period of time I know u all...sorry this post is quite long...but i felt that I need to express my thanks n appreciation...:) n haha, Ive recieved some "piglets" this yr, cos everyone knows I like pink? is my color liking dat (too) conspicuous?;)
but actually, my fav character from Pooh is EeYore. yes, its blue! surprised? hee.. but i like piglet too...
In all, thanks!:) love ya!
