Emotive n emotional...
Today, i attended campus meeting (or is it young adults?) for e 1st time...n i must say i feel real GOOD after e service....everyone was getting all emotive for GOD n i felt so touched...i mean sometimes during church services, u see ple around u, who just can't bear to get all "ugly" for GOD, like jumping up n down, shaking bon bons, n jiggling fats...
but at e service just now, i can jus feel all e joy "ooze out" of e ple...everyone was so exuberant in their display of joy n celebration...woo hoo! rejoice in the LORD, n all dat joy is "better out than in"...:) so, dance, sing n make merry like no ones's looking, for GOD...
I managed to see my care group leader for e 1st time, n wow, she looked so cool! exudes spirit...:)
met a fren after e meeting for dinner...n i "bored" him with lotsa stuff...haha...me naggy...anyway he was a "good ol' gentleman" n he sent me home...hey guys, learn hehe...;)
but i guess im pretty blessed anyway, cos most of my guy frens do bother to send ple home...
now at home, n starting to feel veri emotional...cos i was suddenly reminded of a guy fren( let's call him cblack) . In contrast to such genuinity shown by dat guy fren who sent me home, i feel that cblack lacks sincerity injection into our friendship...n cos of him, i was suddenly reminded of all e other insincere ple that ive seriously treated with sincerity but had been let-downs...
i feel that e start of some opp gender friendships r not all on intended platonic basis...n it hurts e way they just dwindled out of ur lives, when they lost interest? i mean, even if they felt that we r not together "relationship material", we can still be frens,rite? n cblack is e one doing this to me now...:(
i feel that im not getting my point across...actually wat i reali mean is dat: i treat all ple who come into my life with sincerity, as i feel its e basis for all friendships. n im veri HURT when ple doesnt reciprocate with e same sincerity....i mean its another thing as to who gives more in a frenship, but sincerity...both parties must be sincere...
but i guess i just gotta shrug n move on...
Welcome Home?
Just came back from 4 days of hostel life... n i CANT believe dat im actually starting to miss hostel life...dat is , jus a few mins ago after my sis hit me TWICE on my head...
i cant bear to think how anyone can be as childish as her...not to mention her unstable temperament, n her aggresive-inclined nature...im actually sorta boiling now...i feel steam is going to spout from e back of my head anytime soon...urgh....
n im going against my unstated rule of not mentioning names of ple who made me feel bad...eeks!! my sis!! eeks!! how unreasonable can a person get...yea, pride herself for being sassy...i think she's s*cky!! n...babaric!
u wonder how u can love n hate a person so much at one go...my insides r writhing...urgh...
forgive my childish outbursts...but i feel so sad n unloved...now...:(
synergy..feelings?
woah, excuse me as i clear some cobwebs ard here...erh herm...this blog is getting real dusty haha...;p
actualli typed this post but nothin was published...urgh...have to retype n defintely not as spontaneous...anywae, heartfelt apologies n (shame?) for not bloggin for so long...i recieved "gentle reproaching" from some frens for neglecting e blog, so from now on, will TRY to update it more hehe...
actualli, currently not in e best of moods, guess e lousy feeling will go off soon...*hopefully* as i mentioned b4, ple come in n out of our lives, soemtimes more than once...i pray dat for those whom GOD had meant them to stay, i have loved them to my best, treat them well to my best n cherish all dearly....
i love always, to all around me n try not to keep any love in me unexpressed... have u felt unloved by me today? if u did, pls tell me...i want to make it up to u, dear fren...
i know one fren certainly did not feel loved by me today, that explains e lousy feeling...was sorry that i was impatient with her, n got a little too straight with words? im sorry...dear...
was saying something abt "synergy" btw ple today, n my ogl cum fren mark said he will jus put that as "feelings ar" (say this in a cantonese sing-song way ;))...was veri tickled...haha...mark "horse!" hehe, to others who dun understand this joke, its actuali a banter sort ofhumor between mark n frens...if u want to know e joke behind e phrase "horse!", get to know mark urself...;p
feeling better after bloggin, even though i have to type e same thing twice...moving into hostel this coming mon...:)
