The problem with human willpower is that there's no power in the human will.
I've been quarelling alot with my sis lately. Time and again, I resolve not to be quarrelsome but I always fail. Sometimes I wonder how much I love my sis, or how much of my responses and retorts in our arguments are triggered by my own insecurities, or the inability to give up certain rights to just give in. Alot I think.
If I resolve I'll fail. Until I see clearly and accept fully the different expectations we hold and our different definitions of love and care.
Many times I feel like asking (screaming at times) my sis, "Why must I live by your rules when you don't keep to them yourself?"
and God asks me back, " How many times do I consistently live by what I say I do?"
Its always easier to count others' mistakes rather than your own.
"Do not judge, or you too will be judged...Why do you look at the speck of sawdust in your brother's eye and pay no attention to the plank in your own eye?" - matthew 7:1-3
God, grow me to understand your love more and more, such that I will be a living testimony for you.
